I know what it is to be hungry.
I know what it is to be hungry.
I watch the scurry from my seat behind the wheel, past noses of three cars poised to launch.
We sow.
Seeds.
And smiles.
And laughter on the wind.
And conversations that have nothing to do with gardening.
We sow little moments stitched together.
With our time fast running out.
And the dogs watch, and the sun turns us darker still…
And these are just little things. Just the seeds of this life.
But you know, if we take time to plant,
(–such a tiny part to play,)
Jesus brings the harvest.
Leaning on my rake midway down 170 feet of row, I tell my sister dear with a wink that
Anointed.
I love that word.
David says they’re the strong ones, and the free… (Ps. 28:7, 8)
The kings and queens, and priests… Royal. Privileged.
I personally can’t get over the fact that they’ve been touched, prayed over, blessed by God Himself.
The rabbit trail I took through Strong’s landed me in a familiar place, quite possibly the single most memorized chapter in scripture.
But familiar words took on unfamiliar meaning as I saw in them the God that is everything, increasingly (the everything that has no end) to me.
I know the words in english. But if Strong’s is correct, (my soul believes it is) then those words are deeper than our contemporary use of them, by far.
I read them, speak them, love them. Eyes flit back and forth between the open page, and the Strong’s app. And my heart sings something like this–
Anoints…
But not for a throne. Not in this verse.
This one is a relatively rare word, used 12 times, and only translated this way once.
Go look it up.
The reference is to ashes… Ashes, and fat. And “acceptance”…
I believe in the God-scripted life. A script writer myself, I know that he who writes the script authors the outcome, and I believe in God-authored outcomes.
So let the story take unexpected turns!
For the shepherd on the dark hillsides outside of Bethlehem, the appearance of not one, but countless angels from Heaven’s very choir was certainly just that: unexpected.
And for us, sitting in the car all night in a familiar town was that likewise. And being separated by miles and feet of snow when we most wanted to be together– this season, and father’s 60th birthday– certainly not in the plans.
But I have learned that through the unexpected God hones our expectancy towards Himself… And what is this season to remind us of, if not expectant waiting for the King? And even as space and time make loving hearts grow fonder, separation makes reunion more sweet.
So we glory in the gift of Jesus today, together. And thank Him that we have eyes to see, and ears to hear, and lives to live His script.
Wishing you all a most blessed and joyful Christmas! You are (each!) gifts to me this year…
Together! (seriously icy road…) |
finally off the mountain |
catching up (we get behind within minutes of separating) |
I awake early. I’ve slept for only a few hours, but I am charged…
I blink at a dark room, pause to pray. To consider. To remember–
again.
I have no idea what time it is. I don’t check.
Instead, I count God’s mercies, and beg that He will keep us His… always.
That nothing will ever induce us to chose another life. That no success, no opportunity, no open door, no pain or loss, or suffering will distract us from His claims on this little family of mine.
Hours pass. I don’t know how many. The light of dawn finally glows in the east. I reach into the leather bag I set down by my bed at 11:00 last night, pull out a book, open to December 18.
“And we know…!” Not we think, or we hope. Not even we have faith that…
No, we know.
I know. I’d love to tell you just how, sometime…
I keep reading. But I’ve been fed already.
My mind wanders back over hours of prayers in the dark. There is only one condition in this verse before my eyes. “Love God.” For those who love God, one day (quite possibly much sooner than you think) all the darkness will be understood to be exactly what it really is– a gift.
Some day when every wrong is made right, I will understand the true weight of today. For now, let’s just say it was one of the best days of my entire life…
I step out, zipped and buttoned. Black wool and cashmere reach earthward almost to my knees. The very air is alive with vigor, somewhat like my insides… I go to meet my God in a beautiful field, on a beautiful farm, this beautiful morning of mornings.
I sit on sandstone at the spot where two friends of mine became one months ago, and read…
And my journal, this spiral bound book with my handwriting in it, this book that records the secrets of my broken-hearted moments, this book my Nana gave me, it opens my eyes to the goodness of my God.
Every moment I have lived, every mercy I have tasted, every tear I have shed, every battle I have fought, every dream turned to ashes, was for today.
Today.
Without them, the new dreams springing up would have nothing to root in; to feed on. Because of them, I love my God more than I love anything else in this great wide world. And I love all that is (are!) His…
Hours pass and I wander around the pond; ponder why my heart is here today anyway…
It was just a pebble.
Just a friend who doesn’t even know it happened. But just because they love Jesus, because they love what is high and holy and pure, and just because I was blessed to catch a glimpse of it when I was momentarily unsure of what to do with my sword, just because of that; them…..
Some day when every wrong is made right, I will understand the true weight of today.
Mean time, I will never again underestimate the power of influence…
Even if it does seem like just a pebble…
The sound of dry leaves underfoot charms me through. (I’m a midwesterner by breeding.)
I shuffle for the joy of the sound; the joy of the smell…
I breathe pure November under naked oak and hickory;
pause to watch the world readying for white…
And I wonder:
When a man of God does, who does the doing?
I have heard more than one new recruit on the field say to his fellow:
“Buck up, man! You’ve got what it takes.”
Hm.
Kinda.
I’m unconvinced. Especially when I remember that Adam in his spotless strength and beauty drew every drop of nobility he possessed from his connection to his Maker… even though he was fresh from the hands of God (and thus was arguably in the best place to stand alone). His glory, his perfection, his holiness were gifts given not to stand alone, but to put and keep him in connection with the Perfect and Holy… And even as every leaf today draws it’s life force, and every star it’s brilliance from the heartbeat of God, Adam drew his glory from the Infinite.
I other words, the crown of God’s crowning creation (read: humanity) was the connection with Heaven.
What can be compared?
But disconnect… Now there’s a real problem.
[I bend down, aim my iPhone a few inches above grade.]
Disconnect perfect angels, and you get demons.
Disconnect perfect and glorious humanity, and… Well, look around you.
And if Adam needed so badly to be connected to his God… then what are we thinking when we blaze off on our own? Or when we foolishly unfit ourselves for the inhabitance of the Holy Spirit… (emphasis on the word Holy.)
Every man of God, ever woman of God, is nothing.
The image of God, yes… But every shadow disappears when the object is removed.
Without the Supernatural indwelling, we are lifeless, empty shells.
Or worse.
Yea, much worse… the indwelling of the other supernatural.
You’re just a shell, my friend. Just a shell…
Ah, but what glory, when filled with Heaven itself!?
What an honor, to be God’s shadow.
Then let everything else be cast out, that we might not restrict the inflow of the Spirit.
Darkness and Light cannot both be.
Let the Light so shine…
I awaken this morning on a Tennissee farm with a little question on my mind.
Perhaps you have picked up by now that I am passionate about the Gospel…
But I wonder if you know why.
It is really quite simple.
I love life.
I love life…
When a man loves, hard work isn’t heroism.
It’s joy.
Duty is joy.
Today I read a trilogy that made my Gospel-loving soul stand tall.
Written by three of the King’s daughters, who as far as I know, don’t know each other at all.
Not just the what of war, but also the why…
I’d tell you the secret, but their words are better than mine.
Go read the words. Eat the words. Live the words…
“The love of Christ constraineth us…”
Another full revolution around the sun…
I thirst.
25 years have taught me a few things, and none more potent than this:
The greatest gift to any man, is the faith of a child.
Just days ago I sat on the piano bench in a living room full of life, and animated conversations. I was surrounded. Surrounded by young friends 8, 10, 12 years my juniors. Thirsty for God.
I love young lives. And I try to maximize every opportunity to make them stronger.
But these lives had at least as much to teach me as I had to teach them.
I thirst. And I’m not alone.
Strange thirst; all consuming, filling to rejoicing, yet only growing stronger with time…
I thirst for Christ.
Nothing else matters.
If there is anything I intend to do with this year of my life,
it is pass on the faith of little children.
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