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Hope is My Prison, Lord

It’s been one of those weeks…
You know, when every 20 minutes there was another I-should-blog-that moment. And indeed, I would have posted more, had the luxury of time been afforded me. 
Instead, I transformed the office into a recording studio/mastering suite and ran through life from summit to valley to next summit (every twenty minutes!) taking it all in faster than I could even journal about it. 

Then yesterday afternoon it all came together. 

I haven’t written a song in over a year… (Though I’ve half-written at least half a dozen)
And it wasn’t because I didn’t really want to. Just something would get me halfway through, and then drop me. 
I got to the point where I was nearly convinced I’d written my last song. 

Until this week. 

Then I recognized a sweet little melody woven through everything…

– Through the boxes and boxes delivered by our friend the UPS man
– Through fists wrapped around a taught barbed wire while starring into the canyon, and talking to a God that’s a million lightyears away, and still within easy reach.
– Through middle-of-the-night prayers for a friend’s safety
– Through reality checks
– Through emails not so easy to read  
– Through prayers for you– my blog friends. (I pray for you by name– all of you) 
– Through reminders of loss
– Through conversations with my little sister…
– Through hours spent pacing over dust and rocks fighting darkness and finding light…

Here’s just an excerpt. Maybe the melody will never be published, I don’t know…
But I’ll always pray the prayer.


Water Your dreams my Lord, 
  with tears I shed
Feed hungry children Lord, 
  my promised bread
Send me to darkness Lord, 
  teach me to pray
Through fire or freezing cold, 
  I’ll smile and say–
. . . 
Hope is my prison Lord, 
  love is my chain
If I can serve You Lord, 
  my loss is gain
I am a soldier Lord, 
  called by Thy name
Let me walk worthy Lord, 
  worthy of Your name…


  1. Those are beautiful words, Sean. I would love to hear the tune, so I can sing it. 🙂

  2. What a beautiful post Sean! 🙂

  3. Looks to me like another song is in the works!! Maybe another CD too?? 🙂 Thank you for sharing the lyrics.

    Thank you also for the prayers. They are really appreciated. I'm praying for your family also… Blessings!

  4. I have really been wanting to study hope in the Bible. The verse in Zach 9:12 "prisoners of hope" caught my attention last summer and has been tugging at my mind since. I sense there is more behind the title of your blog than you had time to share. I look forward to more explanation someday. 🙂 Hope is an interesting inquiry…

    I'm still waiting to write a song…I don't even get half way. But I guess since they come from God I will wait till He sees fit to send one.

    And yes, thank you so much for your prayers. Prayer moves the hand of Omnipotence, and He is moving in my life I know…

  5. To say "there is more…" is an understatement. There's more I know, and more I'm learning… Even since the post last week the truth has gotten truer. Trouble is, this truth is too deep for words. Hence silence since…

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