But I’m afraid.
Oh, but why?!
It’s fear, you know, that gives these giants (my enemies) all their strength.
Destroy the fear, destroy the giant.
They’re made of paper anyway…
I cross rocky hillside to a favorite old spot. The boulder sits just where it did last time, warmed by the mountain sun.
Some things never change.
Years change though. And ages.
And I’m here both to ponder and to give thanks.
It’s strange how much birthday wishes can move a soul. (or is it?)
I give thanks for them. And for the friends that gave them, and for the promises they have claimed over this little life.
But even more, today I’m thankful for one thing:
For blue-green eyes more than a fist full of years my junior, brave enough to stand up to me and say they expected more, better, higher, from me their friend.
And I reel and wince, and then I melt. Because I know they speak the truth.
For a little voice, rarely heard, barely raised in the babble that broke my stressed-out reasoning into pieces.
That broke me into pieces–
“In brokenness we find blessings.”
And I stop and stare, and then smile. Because I know they speak the truth.
For another, strong and quiet, warning me of my own fearful power to destroy while I treck across western plains.
Half “I’m right here with you,” half “you have absolutely no excuse.”
And I realize, I need more of this. I crave more of this.
I might need it more than the rest of the world put together.
I need to be pushed, challenged, reminded.
And not just by my critics.
I need it from my friends.
I need more brave friends.
These three? they’re keepers.
And they’ve given me the best of the best this birthday.