Unsatisfied By Average

The Musings of a Stubborn Believer

When I Forget…

I simply cannot tolerate disconnect anymore… Not now that I know what it feels like to be full and free. I don’t care what I’m in the middle of doing. When I need to drop everything, I do.
I just do.

My thumb swipes left then right across glass, taps “Reminders.”
Check, check. Check. I scroll for the next thing.

These are days unbelievably full in this house. Unbelievably full. With not one, but four young minds straining over plans for the honor of God in Houston next week, (hours a day) there is never a dull moment.
Or a relaxed one.
But we’re honored to serve… Honored to go to war with darkness, as indeed such it will be.

But I glance around my room, across my desktop, through my inbox(es) for the next most pressing emergency. And I suddenly become aware of an emergency of a different character altogether.

It’s this little heart of mine. Something’s not quite right…

I don’t brush past a call anymore. I can’t tolerate being disconnected from heaven any more… It’s the worst torture. I glance at my watch. Almost noon.

I pocket my iPhone, tell my mother I’m going out for a while, take my little sister by the shoulders and ask her if she’s prayed today…
And I go out.

And what I learn on the snow-covered hillside I expect to take with me all through life.

–  –  –  –  –
Whether my days are full or empty, my greatest danger is the same…
To forget my calling.
To forget, to neglect, to lose under a pile of other stuff… same thing.
Because the moment I forget my calling, I lose track of God’s claim on my life.
And make no mistake, God’s claim is the purpose for living. Lose sight of it, and direction is gone, and meaning is gone. I’m at the mercy of my passions and whims–
At the mercy of my merciless enemies. 
But when the claim of God is understood, and the calling of God embraced, then I am alive. And I can fold my arms and stare massive losses in the face with perfect calm. 
Because my side wins either way…

All at once, I’m ready to work again. 
I’ve been up the mountain, through the valley, across the creek… on my way to Zion.


  1. Speechless. Convicted. Thank you once again, Seán, for redirecting my focus…

  2. Convicted, too…

    I'm looking forward to Houston!

  3. Convicted indeed… Just as what I needed at the just right moment. Thank you for redirecting my thoughts toward Christ, Seán.

  4. Hey were did you get that snow? 😉 Even MI dosn't have any:(

  5. I'll see you guys in Houston!

  6. God bless you, girls. The gospel is so simple…
    @Emily Brinley: I know. I'm counting my blessings. 🙂
    @Emily Brown & Christina: Houston, here we come! 🙂

  7. 'Twas actually Emily Heagy who made the above comment. Though I could have said it, too!

  8. Amen! The busyness is here, too…. and yes,need the reminder. Thanks

  9. @Emily, Emily, & Emily: Oh dear. That's terrible. lol. Thumbnails aren't loading today for slow satellite. So sorry! :-] I shall henceforth try to do better keeping the 6 Emilys apart. [mhm. Go count them.] 😉

  10. It's like forgetting to breathe. . .

    And then asking God why you're dying.

  11. Praise the Lord for faithfully reminding our busy minds to refocus. Thank you for all your doing, all the hours you have spent in preparation for next week. You are all such a blessing! See you soon!

  12. Learning not to "disconnect" is what will keep the fire burning after Houston and forever! 🙂

  13. Thank you so much…. Just what I needed to hear. It is so easy to get distracted by "good" things. Can't wait for Houston! (1 WEEK!!!!) 😀

  14. Thank you so much for the reminder to keep priorities straight. I need to be reminded of that especially. So very important.

  15. Remembering His calling for my life, and that all I am and do belongs to Him…"And I can fold my arms and stare massive losses in the face with perfect calm.
    Because my side wins either way…"
    Thank you for the reminder and encouragement.
    May He continue to bless you, as the last preparations for GYC are made.

  16. Thanks Sean… a hundred times thanks. This post was exactly what I needed right now, this very moment.

  17. That's exactly what I needed to read, right now. Thank you! God abundantly bless as you all bless others in Houston.

  18. Looks like it was my thumbnail that's the culprit. 😉 I'll see if I can get that to work right so you can keep the Emilys straight!

  19. Not sure how I missed seeing this post until now…but today was most definitely the day I needed to read it.

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